Thank you for trusting us enough to share a little more of your situation with us. The clarification will make it easier for people to explain what opportunities you have and offer suggestions as to whether or not those will help you achieve the results you're hoping for.
You may not like what I have to say next, but please understand that I'm not trying to say you're naive, or that you should give up entirely on your goal of studying/living in Japan. However, before searching for someone to serve as your legal guardian in Japan, you might benefit from first discussing your goals with an educational counsellor and psychologist to determine the path that will be most likely to make you happy in the long term.
You mention being unhappy with the educational system in New Zealand because it is not challenging enough for you. However, while the Japanese education system is more challenging than other countries' in many ways, there are also ways in which it is less challenging. In broad, simplified terms, Japanese high schools tend to have high standards for technical subjects, such as math and science. However, Japanese high schools are often decidedly less challenging than English-territory schools in things such as creative writing, debate/discussion, and critical thinking essays. Depending on the specific ways in which you find school in New Zealand to be insufficiently challenging, you might find a Japanese school to be even less so.
It's also worth bearing in mind that international schools in Japan aren't schools that teach the Japanese curriculum in English. Instead, they tend to teach a curriculum that's closer to what's taught in schools overseas, particularly the curriculums in English-speaking countries. Most of the students at international schools in Japan are students who are planning to attend university outside of Japan, and many of them are only living in Japan temporarily due to their parents' work. In other words, an international school in Japan may end up feeling very similar to a school in New Zealand, and may not provide the challenge and atmosphere you are hoping for.
You also mention having trauma and anxiety issues. If those are linked to your present environment, some distance from that environment could have a positive effect. However, while moving to a new country provides many exciting opportunities, it also always comes with some new potential sources of mental stress, and you may have a particularly hard time coping with them if you're already in an exhausted emotional state in your home country. Though Japan is a safe, clean, and generally polite and comfortable country, there are a number of cultural transitions for new arrivals, particularly those coming from English-speaking countries.
The language barrier can be particularly difficult, as even if you'll be attending an international school where the classes are taught in English, outside of school you'll be in an environment where very few people can communicate in any language other than Japanese. Even if you're an adventurous person who knows the basics of the language, this can be a source of stress. Like you, I had an interest in speaking Japanese from my teen years, and after some basic-level studies I was able to come to Japan. I generally enjoyed the challenges of communicating in Japanese, but when I got lost on my way to a very important appointment and tried asking someone for directions, only to completely fail at communicating, I didn't think of it as a fun learning experience, but as a painfully stressful situation. The same goes for a coworker of mine who came down with a bad case of diarrhea but had no clue what kind of medicine she needed to buy at the drug store, couldn't ask the clerk, and had to wait until the next day when an English-speaking friend could go with her.
I can understand not wanting to live in a dorm if you have anxiety issues. Living with a Japanese family, though, can also present new sources of stress. Since you are a minor, the family will feel responsible for you, but since you're not their child, they don't really have the authority to control your behavior. That imbalance can sometimes make the relationship awkward and uncomfortable, and it can get even more complicated if the family also has children of their own in the house. I spent a year as a student living with a Japanese family, and we got along very well, but even we had a few verbal disagreements, and I have friends who got along so badly with the families they were living it that they had to move out and search for another place to live.
Again, I apologize if it sounds like I'm trying to discourage you, and I completely understand the mindset of "I don't feel satisfied here, so I want to try living in another country." My concern, though, is that in your current state, moving to Japan and enrolling in an international school may or may not provide you with the environment that you're hoping for. Because of that, talking with an educational counsellor and psychologist will probably give you a clearer picture of whether now is the time for you to be moving to Japan for your studies, or whether you'd be better off postponing that until a later time.
One final note. You mention u I do not have time to spare to go on student exchange anymore.v However, there are many student exchange programs in which you can earn credits towards graduation at your home country school, especially at the university level. After discussing your situation with an academic counsellor, you may find that waiting until after graduating from high school and coming to Japan on a university exchange program, or perhaps attending a language school in Japan, is more likely to make you happy.
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