John, sorry for not mentioning her age, kinda forgot, I'm 17 she's 19, we've known each other for a good 5 years now, give or take.
One thing that you don't seem to understand is how deeply I care about her, and that by doing this I am just being myself, I'm a giant romantic at heart, and so is she. We both know that we like each other, but we haven't done anything about it, I want to show just how much I care about her by doing something special, I don't think that's unreasonable at all. You also mentioned that if I mess up my Japanese it makes me look stupid, however I'm still learning and she said she finds it very "cute" when I do, but she also finds it very sweet(her words, not mine), that I'm trying to make her feel more at home, and that I'm putting effort into making her happy.
Yes I'm right in some peoples eyes, and in others eyes I'm wrong/stupid/don't know what I'm doing, however, it doesn't matter what other people think, all that matters is what she thinks, and so far she seems to like/enjoy it, and if she didn't like my romantic nature she would have told me long ago, but it turns out that she's pretty much the same way as I am.
It's my fault for not going into much detail, i guess, and i think you didn't quite understand, if this was just any other girl I'd just go up ask her out, and go on the date. But this isn't just some random girl, it's a girl i care very deeply for, so i want to make it special, is that really such a crime? It's better for me to show her how much i care about her, because we've been friends so long, if i just asked her out and continued the normal gf/bf pattern, she might notice something is wrong, like I'm not myself, because she knows that I'm a very romantic person, and she'd definitely be able to tell that I would be holding back, we know each other VERY well and can pretty much read each other like a pop up book.
Live and let live.
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